I recently lost a very early pregnancy. So early that I never got a positive pregnancy test since it was so close to my period, but I knew I was pregnant the way mother’s just know. I had everything planned out to surprise my husband. Then, the day before I had planned to tell him, I had a miscarriage (my first), and I have absolutely no idea how to grieve other than crying at random times when I get off work. I don’t know how to feel about it other than devastated, and I feel like if I let myself be sad for too long then I’m being over dramatic. I just don’t know how to feel about it. I’m so devastated that I never even got to experience the happy part of pregnancy.