God knows how annoyed I am with myself! God knows how sad and miserable I feel, knowing where my heart and soul yearn to vmbe which is forever in his presence but no matter what I seem to climb 10 steps closer to him to then see myself fall 20 steps back with the same struggles and weaknesses I face everyday. How do I honor my God if I can't seem to beat what causes me to fall back all the time? I want to serve him and do my part in his Kingdom but it's just so hard and i can't help but to feel sad, alone and depressed. Please to whoever reads me, please pray for God to revive my walk with him and for God to grant the courageous, knowledge and strength to get back up and try to reach him again.